Merry

So, I have been thinking a lot about happiness and the holidays while driving home and listening to holiday music on the radio. So, I decided to add my own twist to a classic holiday song, "The twelve days of Christmas", hum along as you read:

12 buzzards flying
11 lights a flashing
10 speeding traps
9 deer laughing
8 taco stands a calling
7 texts from Sidro
6 gallons guzzling
5 shiny towns
4 tickets waiting (to be paid)
3 raccoons running
2 cows a cussing
1 Classroom waiting for me

Cheery

Today has been good.. Last night was great (with the exception of Frank's tub), which delayed my arrival at school this morning. Upon, my arrival after lunch I watched my kids interact during recess which is can be an episode of America's Fun Video or Crash Lab; their interaction is comical and jovial. I was glad to see them as they were glad to see me. Life is good with such simple things.

Breathing

Gay

What an adjective? eeh? There are so many variations on the definition of gay that one is not often sure as to the meaning without the context. But, even then inferring occurs and the meaning get muddled somewhere between the purpose and the assumption.

I have been thinking a lot of this word today, trying to find my own definition that has value to me. I am gay (with happiness) today for many reasons: my students, my partner, my friends, my box, and my blog. I am filled with peace as I drove to and from work today watching both the sunrise and sunset with their many gay hunes and colors. Alas, there is one last definition that I am still trying to define within myself. But, for now I am gay for a couple of other reasons today.

Joy

Following day 1 theme on happiness, I had a good evening last night with my dogs who bring me immense joy and peace. Last night my little one who is so full of energy and curiosity she grunts. We shared some vanilla ice cream and chips (I know friends that not healthy but its the holiday right)!. So, last night as I was trying to get some sleep with Seamus next to me and Dakota at my feet I thought to myself how blessed I am to have people and dogs who love me and whom I love. That is was makes me happy today, the love of my family, friends, and pets.

Also, I received another great secret santa gift today..And my students are wonderful sponges today with lots of good questions about learning.

Breathing calmly...

Happyness

I read my friend Marci's blog which asked to post about something that made me happy today.. So, here goes, (I have several today and it is before noon) whoo-hoo...

1. Didn't have to drive an hour and half to come to work, only an hour from Del Rio and made it to work on time.

2. This week is secret santa week and I received 2 breakfast tacos.. yum..

3. My students made me laugh with their silly and curious observations about life and their peers.

4. My sister called to say HI..

That's all for now.. Not bad eeh?

Breathing..

New beginnings

Over the past couple of months I have had a life changing experience that I haven't fully digested yet. I went to an election party @ Frank's house in Del Rio where I met several of his colleagues from work. One in particular caught my attention. As with many of Frank's colleagues I do not have that much in common with except Frank, but with this one it was different. I felt different, my mind began racing with memories of butterflies, anxiety, and excitement. I have had some time to think about it and chat with my friends but it just seems odd.. (not the best word but it will work).. I look forward to many things now, a new year, spending time with my friends, and most of all a clear understanding of my soul: what it is that i want from life and hopefully some ideas on how to obtain it..


Breathing..

Cycles

I started this post about a month ago but never finished it. I think I was going to post about the cycles of friends/friendship but after that I am not sure. Therefore, I will chat about what has been going on since Nov. I am in the last stages of alleviating a huge burden I have been carrying around since June. Hopefully, it was be lifted by the end of this year. Much of everything I have been stressing over is coming to an end and I really can start the new year with a fresh start.

School has been good although the commute is horrible... I can think of many more adjectives to describe it but I will keep this post PG. I often ask myself in the morning if this drive is worth it? Then I get here and work with my kids and partner and realize it is.. But, on my way home (often very late), I wonder again.. I have 10 more days and I will have 2 weeks off.. Hooray! On another school front, I completed my internship class @ UTSA and I will finally get my masters' diploma.. It seems my worry cycles are ending..

Lastly, I wanted to post about friends. I have a good friend whom I have known for over 20 years. He is funny, brilliant, cynical, fluffy, loyal, and giving. We often go through months of simple chatter on the phone just to check if each other is still alive. However, now that I work closer to him I find myself staying and spending more time with him. I compare him to your favorite pair of jeans that either hides in your closet or drawers and is re-discovered during cleaning or a crisis of need. These jeans make you feel good, comfort your body and soul, smell familiar, and bring back to you peace and hope. Frank has been my pair of jeans lately and I am glad I have him..


Still breathing....